"Masih Cinta" by Kotak

When Yean sang this song during the gig I attended, it made me watch teary eyed because it reminded me of how I felt years before. Until now, I've been listening to Bon Jovi's Always but this reflected most on my what I'm most sad about. All because of a dream I had. But it wasn't just tears of sadness, it was also of how proud I am of Yean. She delivered the song with emotion and it filled the theatre with feelings of love and the reminder of loss.

What better way to explain a song than listening to it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xdym2AAmOqs

Tik tik tik waktu berdetik

Tak mungkin bisa kuhentikan

Maumu jadi mauku

Pahit pun itu ku tersenyum

Kamu tak tahu rasanya hatiku
Saat berhadapan kamu

Tik tik tik air mataku

Biar terjatuh dalam hati

Mauku tak penting lagi

Biar kubuat bahagiamu

Kamu tak tahu rasanya hatiku
Saat berhadapan kamu

Kamu tak bisa bayangkan rasanya

Jadi diriku yang masih cinta

Kamu tak tahu hancurnya hatiku

Saat berhadapan kamu

Kamu tak bisa bayangkan rasanya

Jadi diriku yang masih cinta

Update:
I forgot the Translation. Here we go.

Tik Tik Tik time ticks
Impossible for me to stop
What you want becomes what I want
Even bitter ones I'll still smile

You don't know what my heart feels
The moment I'm standing in front of you

Tik Tik Tears from my eyes
Let it fall in my heart
What I want doesn't matter
Let me make you happy

You don't know what my heart feels
The moment I'm standing in front of you
You couldn't imagine the feeling
Like myself while I'm still in love

You don't know my heart broke
The moment I'm standing in front of you
You couldn't imagine the feeling
Like myself while I'm still in love

A Letter from Myself

I received a letter from myself. I wrote it during the ITB orientation where I listed some goals then kept with Ckg Azizah for safe keeping. Now I have it in my hands after a difficult six months I am happy to find I have fulfilled most of them.

One of them I wrote: Draw a Map so that no one would get lost like you did.

Hallway looked like another hallway during my first day however eventually you do tend to get comfortable with the place and find that it is easy to know where you are. Another I wrote: Get a Distinction or two of which I have for my Communication Presentation. But the jewel of these goals is Start a Rugby Team and I did. The ITB Silverbolts Rugby Football Club who are already gaining some popularity among the departments and ready to conquer in the next year.

Now I have a new goal to add in my list: Pass my Exam and move to Semester 2. It'll be a hell lot of practice, at least it's for the sake of success. Then the next year, my goal would be to bring The Silverbolts to bring the blaze of glory.

Bon Jovi 'Always'

This Romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up.

It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up.

Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's ment to be
Well I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby that's just me.

And I will love you baby always
And I'll be there forever and a day always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
And I know when I die you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you always.

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh
Some that made us cry
One that made you have to say good bye.

What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes I'm just a man.

When he holds you close
When he pulls you near
When he says the words
You've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him, that his words were mine
To say to you till the end of time.

That I will love you baby always
And I'll be there forever and a day always
If you told me to cry for you I could
If you told me to die for you I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you.

Well there ain't no luck in these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams and our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines.

And I will love you baby always
And I'll be there forever and a day always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
And I know when I die you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you always.

Emotional Playlist

I categorized my songs into moods in my iPod and one of them I called the Emotional playlist. The Playlist contains only songs that in some way have affected me emotionally and I would have categorized them mostly into the relaxing music playlists if it were not for the baggage the music carries. I see music as a form of communication to the listener in manipulating their sense. I believe that songs that make you 'feel' are the best songs, but that is dependent on the special meaning to the listener themselves individually.

Here is the list of some songs that I have placed in the Emotional Playlists.


Bon Jovi
Always
"I will love you baby always and I'll be there forever and a day"

Bon Jovi are pioneers in Rock Ballads. Their lyrics on romance are sweeter than any rock cupid can deliver. 'Always' has a special place in many hearts for the heart wrenching tear shedding chorus, especially to those could not stop loving.

Best time to listen: When you feel down and thinking of that special person.

Bruce Springsteen
The Wrestler
"Have you ever seen a one trick pony in the field so happy and free?"

It's a tribute to those people who dangers their lives for the sake of others but are unnoticed, burnt out and exhausted. It was played after the ending of The Wrestler and those who understood the protagonist would have felt the same as I did. That is when the screen went black and the song played, once the credits start rolling you shed tears for The Wrestler.
Best time to listen: After watching The Wrestler.

Danny Gokey
You are so Beautiful to me
"Can't you see you're everything I need"

The most perfect simple ballad to the person you are in love with. Can you imagine yourself sitting down as you stare into her eyes and sang this song the way Danny did? To carry the heavy load of your love and release it into a powerful voice full of energy.

Best time to listen: When you are in love and you find yourself sitting down outside as the cool breeze engulfs you in emotions.

Dewa 19
Dewi
"Dewi, kaulah hidup ku. Aku cinta pada mu sampai mati."

One of the two malay songs in the playlist. 'Dewi' was popular for its jazzy tune mixed in as a rock ballad. Dewi in English means Goddess and the song, like 'Always' is for those who can't stop loving.

Best time to listen: On your bed trying to catch some sleep.

Ella
Demi
"Didalam bagaikan benih yang belum bernyawa"

It's about a woman in love. She describes her feelings in an ovarian reference, giving in some way a sense of feminism of which relates perfectly with Ella. The lyrics above is translated as "Inside is like a seed waiting for life".

Best time to listen: If you want to listen to songs with lyrics that are unusual but unique in a special way.


Lia
Feel like Girl
"Do you remember what you said to me, it's been ringing in my heart"
Sang by a Japanese singer with some really good English. The words deliver and in somewhat a tribute to the Anime of which it is played in, you do feel like a child again. Ironically, it was played during the famous survival game, a gun battle on school campus.
Best time to listen: When you feel like a girl. Or better yet, when you watch the second season of School Rumble.

Oasis
Stop Crying your Heart out
"'Cause all of the stars are fading away. Just try not to worry. You'll see them someday"
It's meant to cheer you up when you are in great loss. It tells you not to worry and that someday you'll try again. When you have friends crying, give them a hug and sing in a whisper to their ear. Tell them all will be fine.
Best time to listen: When you feel sad and are unsure on what to do. In some way, the song gives you an answer.

Paramore
The Only Exception
"When I was younger I saw my daddy cry and curse at the wind."
It's about finding faith in love again. The song instantly gains your focus from creating sympathy in the beginning of the song but the hook of the song is the sweet and honest chorus. In my opinion the song is amazingly honest, has the perfect song structure and is one of the great examples of impressive songwriting. A good song to listen to for ages.
Best time to listen: When you are enjoying the rain. The ambience is perfect.


I said in my previous post that I enjoy listening to my iPod when it is raining at daytime. So when it starts pouring and the cool comforting breeze starts blowing, have a listen to some of the songs and maybe you'll enjoy it the way I do.

The Nonexistent Simple life

I wonder why people view other people simple? Is it our natural behavior to generalize everyone so we find ways to treat them accordingly, regardless of the individual differences? For example, if a person cares less in sharing certain interests, you treat the person as an outcast therefore hostile.

Life is not that simple and people tend to forget.

We are not exactly the most pure beings in the universe despite our ability to advance in record time. I once met a girl whose attitude towards religion has been conservative but of course temptation does seem to have a powerful affect on people and pregnancy seemed to her as her own armageddon. She kept her faith up but why do people lose theirs towards her?

Remember readers, next time you see a person who for some reason you have expressed a kind of dislike towards him or her just by looking, put yourself in their shoes and see the world the way they see it. Keep an open mind but retain your dignity. You must not forget that you are different but no different to the people around you. Stereotyping is disgusting.

Thank you for reading.