Today of all days

I got depressed today.
I don't know whether the fact that Fakhrul is going out with someone, or that I didn't know about it.

And then I kept saying how Life is a bitch and then you die. Like some kind of slogan I say to advertise myself for attention.

Dan and Nisa said I was lucky to get a driving licence, yet as if I wanted to be uncomplete.

I made a fool of myself in front of Farianne today. I was bitching about how life is hard, and how troubling relationships are.
"You want a girlfriend, is that it?" she said.
I tried to deny it, but I think Farianne understands. All this ranting about life and relationships is just because of some stupid idea that while everyone's dating I should to. I say to myself, is it greed?

I say to Farianne, am I pathetic?
"Well, it depends"

I have greater respect for Farianne now. One of those people that completely sees through you.