After all these years, I finally stopped

I've been contemplating a lot about my life with you in it.

I remember you calmed me when my anger made me a beast to everyone and you were there making me human again. You leaned your head on my shoulders, you let me sift through you hair, you let me trust you infinitely. I wondered then what is life like again without you?

But you never let me say I love you, even though you knew it to be true.
I kept the feeling in my heart for years to come, waiting for the day you would accept finally what I have said to you. Even though, the hopelessness of dream prevents the day to come.

And today, I decided to stop loving you. After all these years, I finally stopped.

I find myself with deep regret and relief.