Best of Both Worlds

Ramadhan month is here and the fasting month can bring some latent cravings... I mean, latent interests. I'm talking about food. Cooking food. Or meals that can be experimented on. And I love to experiment to achieve some of those 'best-of-both-worlds' feeling. Here's an example.

A six hour trip to Japan can be uncomfortable if you don't do it right. Somewhere in the 4th hour a nasty cramp took over and pretty much the most unpleasant moment in my plane experience.

It was finally morning and the first thing I ordered was a can of Coca Cola but left it to enter the bathroom. A Stewardess came up to me when she noticed how messed up I look I guess before I entered the bathroom. Then I came out and she appeared with a warm cup of lemonade to ease the dizziness. How thoughtful!

So I sat at my seat with warm lemonade and cold coca cola on my tray. I drank both separately in turns.

The result. Pure happiness. Heaven. Like lemons fell and burst to fill the world with its aroma.

Thank you Singapore Airlines :)

Work Attachment Begins

It's Semester 3 and it's the time for Student Work Experience where each student is given work placement in select areas in need of specialists looking to improve their skill set. My work attachment? JABATAN PERIKANAN.

First day is doing well. It took some quick understanding of the system and the people who work there. If you have a dad who works in the same ministry but in different departments that pretty much compliment each other (Dad is in Pertanian while I'm in Perikanan, both under Ministry of Industry and Primary Resources), here's the trick: Imagine you are your father. And everything went real smooth.

The funky part is that almost everyone in Fisheries knows my dad. The FUNKIEST part is that I FEEL like my dad.

Hope this goes well. Good luck to the freshies in ITB and the buddies at work attachment this year!

Life in your dreams

Have you ever felt that during the your last 10 hours of sleep, it felt as if you spent a long period in life? If you've seen Inception, you get the idea. Every time we sleep we, feel as if we endured, felt, and experienced lives we couldn't feel otherwise while awake.

Then you realize how your dreams feel more real?

At times, I want to keep dreaming. Despite what the whole 'The Matrix' concept explains, you have no control of your dreams. I once had dreams of a pack of dogs hacking all over my flesh (of which the phenomenon is explained to be due to the stress accumulated from handling the ITB orientation).

Last night's dream, it was like sitting in the cinema and watching stories unfold that span in periods longer than the 3 hours that you sit in. And you tend to find things that you try hard to capture.

But what I dreamt that night it was beyond anything I could explain. It was by one act that made me remember all of it, and by that one act it was followed by a string of events that would last a lifetime.

THE ACT...

It isn't what you do that makes it memorable, it was the person, that projection of a person in your life, that you shared in your dream.

WAS A KISS.

You wake up and wonder,
did the other dream the same and can dreams be connected?
Why did it have to end?
How can it be real if it never happened.

I'M NOT SAYING WHO...

You know you can never dream it again. You can't have the same dream twice.
Maybe someday I'll sleep forever and I will keep dreaming lifetimes.
In the mean time, I'll live in reality to make dreams come true.

Code 99

Rugby term to remember: Code 99. Scary when you know it. Scarier if you've seen it. Much scarier if you're in it.

Article from Wikipedia.org:

"In rugby union, the "99" call was a policy of simultaneous attack by the Lions during their 1974 tour to South Africa. The tour was marred by on-pitch violence, which rugby historians partly blame on the tensions of the era which included violence in Vietnam, Ireland, England and Apartheid era South Africa.

Lions' captain Willie John McBride instigated a policy of "one in, all in" - that is, when one Lion attacked, all other Lions were expected to join in the melee or hit the nearest Springbok. By doing so, the referee would be unable to identify any single instigator and so would be left with the choice of sending off all or none of the team. In this respect, the "99" call was extremely successful, as no Lions player was sent off during the tour.

Many players involved in this match called the 'Battle of the Boet' (named after the venue - the Boet Erasmus Stadium in Port Elizabeth, South Africa) have since admitted this was a regrettable 'lowlight' in their careers. Dr Hannes Marais, the captain of the Springbok side has stated the misrepresentation and vilification of South Africans of the time was unfortunate although understandable and had little factual basis on a player to player level. Many critics refer to this match as the dirtiest game in the history of rugby union while it also marks the beginning of ostracism of Apartheid on the sportsfield internationally.

Some argue the Battle of Boet Erasmus Stadium was a precursor to the sentiments that boiled over on the 1981 New Zealand tour. There is famous video footage of J.P.R. Williams running over half of the pitch and launching himself at Johannes van Heerden after such a call, something that Williams says he is not proud of."



So far, I use Code 99 to describe wide scale violence on the pitch. It happens at times and not always pretty to look at. Especially when it goes like the one below.

The Body Remembers

The mind forgets but the body remembers, I keep telling my comrades.
So it doesn't matter if you lost one year of rugby or more, it always comes back to you.
All that is needed is a bit of hard work, and faith.

The Field

Fifteen men for the glory of battle

Each wanting their bones to shatter

Eyes alit, sweat drops in rains

The sun blinds us extending our pain.

Brotherhood is a binding contract

Shirts are pulled among their acts

A common cause is what they fight for

The free eight men who struggles ashore.

The other seven wait their turn

Seeing their brothers ready to earn

Their feet in leap ready to fly

Reminding them they're not there to die

The sea of blood, the sea of tears

The fiery landscape of our fears

Bodies burn, hearts afire

All the reason to take me higher.

The field is where I long to be

With my brothers in arms eventually

Let ten or fifty years go past

As long as I am on that field at last.

Names I use for Rugby

PSYCHOLOGICAL WARFARE
A tactic where the opposition is ridiculed into getting them hot tempered. They either lose focus, or gain yellow card.

TABLE
A straight spear that will knock the flying sh*t out of you.

GANGBANG
It's when three or more tackle one player. HARD.

T-REX TACKLE
Otherwise known as the Dive Tackle. Done in surprise.

HAMMERED
A consecutive number of hits done by the forward pack NON-STOP.

PICK & MIX
Where Backs and Forwards mix up in the defense line.

SKIING
Pulling a shirt and getting dragged by the opposition.

Sarah in Comic Land

Dear Sarah

Hey honey :) Since you haven't been checking out the blog (although I don't update much hehehe), I'd thought your first reading would be on what you asked me just now in Twitter. That's right: Graphic Novels. I don't have a wide collection but I know some I can recommend for your fun reading :)

Let's begin with my favorites. :D

Dark Knight Returns

The comic narrative style is classic. Doesn't matter if you are lost in the current Batman universe, this book is a worthwhile read. If Batman ever disappeared, this is how he should return: With a Bang. Also, it has an in depth look of what might the world look like in the future of the DC universe.

Dark Knight Strikes Back (aka DK2)

It's a sequel but it doesn't strike much with the first comic. It's colors are blinding and bit of lazy and scattered. Yet, the story itself is epic in proportion. If you've seen how Batman handled the future, what about the other superheroes? Comic Geek Love.

300

If you've seen the movie, why not read the original comic that inspired the film. The colors, the characters, the story, the action... all unaffected by movie censorship standards, in a big book. Plus, it's like carrying a sketch pad in your hands. You'll be amazed at the amount of detail and it's original portrayal.

Watchmen

It's deep with philosophical statements, a satirical novel, a political statement, and a reality check. If superheroes ever existed, is it really good for the world? Why do people where costumes and become vigilantes? Are superheroes really perfect role models. I bet if you saw the film after reading it, you'll fall asleep. Watchmen is a true graphic novel.

Blankets

This is my absolute favorite. Reading it is like reading it for Literature class. The book makes use of a lot of symbolisms, and reading it several times you'll still find some hidden meanings in the images. A love story in connection with religious faith, about growing up and about family. I can write essays about how the characters are similar yet complete opposites to each other. It's a really big book, this is how I like my comic books. Just a relaxing read yet a serious statement.

V for Vendetta

The movie has little to offer compared to this comic when it comes to bringing out the true intentions of the villain named V. Another political satire from the writer of Watchmen and another impressive display of writing skill. If England were to become a Fascist state where citizens are monitored their whole lives, how would one change the country? The movie brought a message of Liberty over Control. The graphic novel explains deeply that it is not just that. It is about ending Order with Chaos.

That is all for now. There are other titles like Bone, Scott Pilgrim, Kick Ass, and more but I'll just leave it to you to explore the great world of graphic novels. It is an adventure :)


Sincerely,


Azzi

As long as you smile, the world shines

I'm officially off the braces then replaced with a retainer which I can take off anytime. This means to me so much. It's like my confidence came back and I can smile again to people without pulling my lips back. Life is awesome if you have to strength to smile. Exit Braces Enter Retainers :P

I dedicate my 500th post to the PTEB Sixers

I finally reached the 500th post. Strange that I got here despite the length of updates I have been making. This post, I dedicate to my Sixers. Where Glory Days will never be forgotten.

It's been 2 years since. But you know, I remain eager and confident we'll get back to the field of battle again.

Love and Faith

I've been wondering about my current stance in love's existence. Despite the number of times I've said that I gave up, it seems evident that I am still unsure of it myself. That's me. Indecisive. It just so happens that I had another of those 'dreams' that talk to me.

You see, there was this girl I met once, and I remember her eyes. It was during one of those days when I has someone else on my mind. Yet, there she was, and I forgot the problems I had then. Can you imagine seeing a glimpse of someone and all your troubles are gone?

Then today, I had this dream  and she was sitting on my bed. As to the curious nature of how she got into my room even with the door locked is puzzling, yet in dreams you don't think about this a great deal. I said her name, then she turned her head with a smile on her face. Her eyes were still the same color I remember.

We talked for awhile, laughing at the fact that she was in my room which is impossible. It seemed like a long conversation. Before I could ask how did she get here, she asked me a question that I never expected.

"Do you believe in love?"

I told her I did. She asked why the past tense, of which then I replied:

"My faith in it was gone."

She sighed.

"You still have me in your mind."

How did she know that, I wondered. That was awkward.
I laughed. It was a nice thought that she knew.

"Something inside you", she said, "still believes in it, even if it hurts"
She knew everything, like she understood every part of my life. As a final word, she said:
"You haven't given up on it, even if you try. Your faith is still strong".

To have a dream tell me that was really weird.
Yet it was serious.

"I know I'll never see you again," I said. "I'll wake up and realize it's a dream. I hate that, waking up to the most special memory and forget it. In real life, I know you don't see me the same way I did. Then I will realize why do I still love? It is better if it never occurred to me at all. Yet I still does."

"I'm here right now," she said. "I know you won't forget."

I knew what she meant.
"You kept it alive didn't you."

"So did she," she said.

Hey You

It’s been awhile, so here it goes…

If you’re here reading, hi.
Thanks for not forgetting me.
I hope that you checking my blog is because you’ve been wondering where I’ve gone missing.

I really want to let you know this:
My heart that day when you stopped talking to me.
That same day, something in me felt like it died.
The next day, I gave up on love, after years of believing in it.
Then I gave up on you, after all these years I thought you’ll be there.

Yesterday, I had a dream. The dream came like a flashback and then I remembered all those good times and forgot all this hate I’ve been accumulating.



It went like this: It was you and me, going down to the canteen and bought some food while I got myself some extra chips. Then after, I fell on this ditch and like, passed out for a few seconds before going noisy on how karma-ish it was. You laughed and we went on after crying for a moment for the chips I spilt.

Then we had our lunch before the next class and I saw how amusing it was seeing you chew with difficulty. We talked and ate, and then when we were finished, we talked some more. I remember you got this smile I really like. But I always remembered your hair. We talked about your hair a lot, vividly I remember how long it was.

When the dream ended, all the anger on you was still there, but this time a bit relaxed.

I thought about the difference of my life with you in it, and my life without you in it. But I get it. When this happened, it gave an opportunity for me to search myself. You know, basic ‘find whole reason to being’ stuff, what you really mean to me, and why I could never put you off my mind. I think I’m close to the answer.

I wish I could tell you about Japan. It was your dream too.

And you know, the moment I was in Japan and breathed in the spring air it was a journey start to healing. Yet, it was the flowers that helped me.



My heart healed the moment I saw the blossoms.

Wished you were there with me.

I *hearts* Siobhan

I got 2 more days until Japan yet there are still things I'm worried about. One of them is the question whether they watch American Idol there. I thought about checking the TV schedules there but then I can't read Japanese, but at least they don't sing Japanese in Idol!

Siobhan Magnus remains hot in Idol. The Rolling Stones theme week got me excited but my most favorite performance was Siobhan's interpretation of Paint in Black. Not my particular favorite Rolling Stones song but she rocked anyway. No, better than rock. SHE WAS AWESOME.

The end caught me by surprise again like the way she did Aretha Franklin's Think. I hope she wins Idol. I don't care if people say there are certain exceptional qualities needed to win Idol. She's quirky, surprising, and has the best voice among all the finalists.

Sakura Blooming

My sis sent this picture through Email. It's a picture of Sakura tree getting ready to flower.

It may not be a pretty sight, winter ended after all, but once the spring comes the flowers bloom exquisitely and you'll see that heaven fell on earth in the form of Cherry Blossoms.

Snakes

This has been a stressful month for me.

Faza says its stated in the chinese horoscope, that the snake's fortune would lower in the beginning before it could rise. Stating the evidence, three of us on the table then were born in 1989, therefore are under the year of the Snake and are facing stressful situations.

I remember that Snakes were worshipped as Gods and one of the beliefs was that their long body acts as a link between heaven and earth. I thought a lot about Quetzalcoatl, the Aztec feathered snake deity. But I though most about the serpent in the bible. It's interesting how the serpent was a God of Fertility then became the symbol of temptation.

I remember reading Paradise Lost and felt sympathy for the devil.

Inspirational Quotes from a Rugby Brother

"Where ever I walk, I aim for the skies"

An almost accurate translation of Saffuan Muhammad Ali's Facebook status. There can be no other true sentence to our ambitions.

"Dimana bumi ku pijak, Disitu langit ku junjung"

After all these years, I finally stopped

I've been contemplating a lot about my life with you in it.

I remember you calmed me when my anger made me a beast to everyone and you were there making me human again. You leaned your head on my shoulders, you let me sift through you hair, you let me trust you infinitely. I wondered then what is life like again without you?

But you never let me say I love you, even though you knew it to be true.
I kept the feeling in my heart for years to come, waiting for the day you would accept finally what I have said to you. Even though, the hopelessness of dream prevents the day to come.

And today, I decided to stop loving you. After all these years, I finally stopped.

I find myself with deep regret and relief.

Market Cannibalization

I think I just found my favorite word in Marketing yesterday. It's called Cannibalization under Market Segmentation.

It's when one segment of the market eats up all the profits made from the other profits even though money is equally spent to improve each of them, creating more liabilities than profits.
However, this is how it ended up,

Ms Dyla: "Ok, class. What is the meaning of Cannibalization?"
Me: *hand raised* "It's when you're hungry and you're desperate"

Ms Dyla: "Actually, Ziggy's analogy is correct."
Me: "WHAT??"


Lol!

Paol got a 42" LCD TV

This was old news but I just checked out Ranoadidas.com and saw my uncle's picture. LOL! Maybe I should go to his house and spend hours on with the PS3 bwhahahaha. It's surprising too! He won an XBOX 360 last year I think for another quiz

"Second place winner Hj Mohd Hairol Hj Sani took home a LG 42' LCD TV, along with an exclusive Manchester United jersey signed by Ryan Giggs."

Yes, my uncle is a diehard football fan. And a wrestling fan lololol!

Thanks Rano for the coverage :)

Belait Tens, or On being 'Iron Tabled'

I just got back from the Belait Tens with Sunburn, Cuts and Bruises. Today, I got tackled real hard by Eazy. I remember giving him a nickname "The Iron Table" and I only just remembered after the impact.

Khai didn't see it would lead to a hospital pass, his back was turned around then without knowing Eazy had me marked and came for me. That split second, it felt everything went slow motion. Dizzy and shaking from the tackle, unaware of my surroundings.

I got up and tried to move even while winded before I was told to leave the field to be replaced by a sub.

Saffuan pulled me up really. He reminded me to always get up, that is what heart is. Once the game ended, I walked one round the arena thinking about the moments before the tackle and what I could have done. I got back to Saffuan after relaxing my thoughts and breaths.

Me: "Three guys tried to rip the ball off my hands just now, I didn't let go"
Saffuan: "Before, it was four guys."
Me: "It was five guys then!"

Thank you Saffuan for the support and always reminding me to remain head high.

Having to have survived the massive tackle got me some praise. Especially from Coach, "What I am most impressed is Ziggy. He got tackled real hard but was still playing." Even Cliff said, "If there was a player of the day, it would be Ziggy." And my heart lifted."

Overall, I thoroughly enjoyed the Belait Tens. Competing with and against my rugby brothers was a great honor. I've also greatly improved my own tackling skills this year. Thank you and Congratulations Pythons, BYOB, and Miri Rhinos. You guys remain awesome. I look forward for another scrum with Pythons and Rhinos, maybe someday.

The funniest I've heard today. LOL!

Me: *stating the obvious to Lim* "You know you get sunburn when your own sweat starts stinging your face"
Referee: *aside* "I think he meant it as a philosophical statement."

Courtroom visit

Thank you Mr Siva for the field trip to the Courts. It was an awesome learning experience!

Anyway, I told mom today I'm going to court because I hit a car and she was like "WHAT??" but then I was joking. It was a visit to the Magistrate's Court and the Attorney General's Chambers to understand the law system. It was great, but being in that courtroom was sublime. It kinds of make me feel like being a Criminal Lawyer LOL!

Got new boots today. Booyah!

I'm currently excited. Tomorrow is the Belait Tens which I really enjoyed last year and can't wait to come back again.

So this year, I can't wait. ITB players get their debut, UBD focusing to win, this is going to be awesome!

My allowance is out!

I finally got my cash back in the bank. After waiting for a month, which felt honestly like a long time, I am now able to pay my debts, save for Japan and purchase items that I am currently planning to buy.

First of all, this month is my Rugby boots's anniversary. Surprisingly, in this month is when they break and buy new ones. My boots have a life expectancy of 1 year apparently. So yes, I'm planning to get a new pair before the Belait Tens Tournament this Sunday.

I'm also planning for a hair cut. Back to the buzz cut or to the flat top again?

There are also these videogames I want to buy but I'll have to wait until I come back to Japan to buy them. Just one, I mean, it's a difficult choice. Heavy Rain, BioShock 2, or GOW3? I can't buy all of them at once.

Charity? I treated Zani and Aira for a movie today :)

Oh, I promised Ellwyna we hang out once my allowance is out. Yay!

Pick Up the Guitar

Here's to a good friend of mine, who knows me longer than most people and it's pretty much like a sister to me.

You said that you could take in what ever I said, but I do not have the stomach to say it to you, especially with people you surround with that you listen mostly than me. So I preferred a different medium to tell you how I felt, what I needed, and what I wished. I started blogging again. And so here are my thoughts:

I wished you would need not to depend on people a lot. You have your friends comfortably around you but what if there's no one to help you someday? What if you got into a state of helplessness and no one is around to help you? I mean, I can't be there for you every time. I got my own shit to think over every day, and to have to worry about you all the time is a promise I couldn't give.

But that wasn't the only reason I stayed away.

In truth, when I look at you I think of all the horrible feelings you gave me. And I hated them, I hated them to the point I would rather not see you again. I did, but would you have me regret that decision? I care dammit! It's so hard to think that you broke me even when you asked for my help, to able to reach that capability of inhumanity that you have bestowed on me. What am I to you anyway? A Pawn? A Prop? A decoration? A Wheel?

But then I do get worried for you. I don't know, the years we've known each other must be at fault. I only showed you the support you wanted, the understanding, an open ear you needed, but no. You never thought about them. Sometimes I think you're only an attention seeker but I know that you are not as worst as that. I know you are struggling between being babied and being independent and I totally understand. There's a never ending inner battle of personalities in your head but you needed someone to take the responsibility of your indecision.

Now, your asking for me. In a time where my loyalty and sacrifices will be put to the test. If you cannot respect these, then I'm sorry. You are asking for the impossible.

Pick up that guitar, go on stage alone with a mic stand while facing a crowd, and sing just for yourself, not for anybody. Because you don't really need me. You needed confidence. I believe in you and that is enough to give you the confidence you needed.

With courage and confidence, you have the ability to move forward anywhere.

Siobhan Magnus

I think I'm starting to like American Idol again. Last year's American Idol didn't work for me (maybe it's because Danny Gokey didn't get at least top 2, heheheh T_T). I heard someone singing With Arms Wide Open on TV and being a fan of Creed made me run towards the living room, surprising even my mom.

I enjoyed Katelyn Epperly's The Scientist cover. I love Coldplay, and the way she sang it gave it the song's needed effect, a feeling of longing and it was perfect.

The performance that I LOVED TO DEATH was Siobhan Magnus's rendition of Aretha Franklin's Think. She just puts so much personality on her singing, I enjoyed every bit of it! Especially the part when she reached the "Freedom" then that HIGH PITCHED NOTE knocked me off my socks! GOSH you should watch the youtube video down there to better understand I mean.

ENJOY

Netball lol!

I was invited to play Netball in UBD by Jal. It felt weird because I still got my rugby skills affecting the playing. Well, yeah long story short, I suck at Netball. Fun game nevertheless.

I'm a bit concerned with one of the rugby girls. I don't know what's up with her but she's been really unresponsive lately, maybe angry or sad, God knows. I believe I should take care of my club member's well-being. I guess that's the responsibilities of a club president I guess.

Take care you, when you need something to get off your chest, I'm all ears.

Sunshine School 2001 Graduates

I'm currently hunting down my old batch mates during Primary School. It was a favor from Teacher Ramchan for Sunshine School's 25th Anniversary reunion. Since we all didn't have a proper reunion yet, I guess this is one chance to bring everyone back together after 9 years.

Any friends from Sunshine School reading this, I set up a group in FB. Just go to this link: http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=327430497513&ref=mf

This year is Sunshine School's 25th Anniversary and they plan to celebrate it by having all the students in 1985-2010 for a reunion. So my job is to get as many of them from Facebook and bring them together again.

Check this Link:
http://news.brunei.fm/2010/02/13/sunshine-school-turns-25/

I met some old faces, some of them I remember while some remembered me. Faces changed over the years but we could still recognize each other. When Teacher Ramchan gave me the list of names, it gave me a sense of nostalgia.

So readers, help me out if you know them I shortened their names to make it easier.

I'm missing:
Ahmad Firdaus
Azim Othman
Rahimuddin
Amirul fadeli
Afiq Hj Masmin
Kasyfi Hj Zaharuddin
Arifullah Hj Abd Ghani
Ha'adi Hj Mhd. Fadillah
Omar Qayyum
Adib Junaidi
Azmi Nasir
Fadhil Mat Salleh
Hakiim PA Badiodzaman
Richard Godfrey F. Ret
Dylz Aiuddin
Afifah Atikah Pg Hj Ismail
Afifah Hanisah Pg Ismail
Lea S. Genelsa
Miss Tan Mui Kim
Asmah Basir
Afiqah Harun
Afiqah Latip
Ainulhakimah Awang Mahmud
Azimah Zahari
Azimah Hamid
Hazwani Ahmad
Fitri Nadiah Abd Rajak
Haziqah Hanapi
Kamilah
Qomariyah Sibah
Sally Isal
Amalina Zainal abidin
Hamizah Husin
Mar Atussholiha Mohd. Hisa
Afiqah Aminin
Zeshelie Ann L. Chi

But in the group there is already:
Atiqah Ismail
Atiqah Rahman
Shahrizan
Rina Kassim
Mimiet Zabidi
Fydah Junaidi
Haziq Jezta
Syara Don
Raihana HMD
Yusri HBB
Nadirah Noordin
Rafaa Nur Ranie
Max Latif (Zani apparently)
Dee Ismail
Asymawi Ibrahim
Nabilah D Alias
Aqidah

Those who haven't joined yet:
Jannah
Izzati Hj Omar
'Ainaa Hamid
Aimi Jeffry
Terence Sea
Fadzli HS
Hafiz Abdullah
Raheem Sofrey
Dini Hanani
Lynn
Farha'an Sidek
Arif Ebil
Amal Nabilla
Lala Yussof

Those who I found but hasn't joined the group at the moment:
Fakrurazi Hj Hidup
Tajul Ariffin
Dominic Chong

The Meaning of Rugby

Someone asked me today, "What is the meaning of Rugby?"
"It's about respect," I said. "Discipline, Competition, Willpower, Brotherhood, Fun..."
"I can put as many words on what Rugby means, but I would say Rugby is Life."
"Why?", He said.
"I don't know. It's hard to explain Rugby. You get hurt and it's ok. You get up and you keep running. It's that very idea that every action you do in Rugby is symbolic in some way. I've played it for four years. I guess, Rugby gave me a special meaning."
"What is it like getting tackled?", he made his final inquiry.
I said, "It's like getting your first breath of fresh air."

I believe when you get tackled you get reborn. You win, you become immortal.

Massive Headaches

I'm back again. I spent so much mini-blogging in Twitter, I came back to Blogger after a few months.

Today I finished my Business Computing 2 Test. I am now officially in Semester Break.
But I can't seem to get rid of the functions of excel out of my head.

Like the formula using IF Function
=IF(E25="A",F25*12.00,IF(E25="B",F25*10.00,F25*8.50))
I can't believe I could remember all that 12 hours later!

I got hit in the neck during rugby training, which left me with a headache after. Always warm up your neck thoroughly before any contact.

There was this big public marital argument while I was at the gerai. It's best not to stare at these situations but we had to hear all of it. There was a lot of screaming and it was disheartening to listening. Even the Nasi Katok I ate didn't taste as great as I wanted it to.

Life is ugly at times. There are times where we couldn't do anything. We sit and watch and only sympathize. Its the honest truth, even if we stood up and tried to stop the fighting, we can't do anything about it. It'll only make things worst.

I just wished they didn't do it in public.

Today, Yean sent a heartfelt message in FB of which I didn't know how to reply. It was tough because it was a question about friendship and commitment. I'm now writing a song with my spanish guitar which I named Mephistopheles just so I could find an answer.

Music helps in many ways. It could even save a life.